Probiotics and Primeval

OK so to start this off I am giving Probiotics another try.  I am prone to stomach issues and I had tried to take probiotics a year ago and it so happened to have coincided with me getting a horrible bought of sour stomach.  I don't know exactly what the sour stomach is but that is what I call it.  What happens is I get massive stomach pain and then when I burp honestly it smells like raw sewage.  Well my mind instantly associated the probiotics with the stomach issue.  Well over the last year I have gotten the issue one other time and there was no probiotics involved so I was finally able to get myself away from thinking that was the problem.   Well even just after two days I was able to start to feel a difference in the way my stomach was feeling so I am going to stick with it.  I take the probiotics twice a day so I will see how it goes.  I also learned that it can help make your hair grow which is cool cause I want to grow my hair long.

On to the second part of my post today.  OK so I have a habit of finding great TV shows after they have been cancelled and last week I discovered Primeval a show than ran for 5 series (in the UK for some reason they call season series)  I fell in love with this show after just one episode and over the last week watched all 5 series.  Bare in mind they are the usual BBC length where the series is actually like between 7 and 9 episodes a piece but I was hooked.   I loved it so much I am actually starting over again .  Honestly the best television I have found to watch is Doctor Who, Sherlock (which kills me with its incredible amount of time between series) and Primeval (sadly no longer making new episodes)  All these shows are BBC shows. That cannot be a coincidence.

Well I am done for right now going to try to write another blog tonight about my new diet regime.

Damn You Steven Moffat!!!!!!!

OK so seriously I love/hate Steven Moffat.  This man is the single greatest bane of my existence except for being fat I guess, but he controls my tv watching schedule and always messes it up with his non-standard release times and breaks between seasons of his show.  I am pretty sure that he just sits around and BBC goes "Hey when you going to get us some new Doctor Who or new Sherlock?" and he just goes "Fuck you guys I am Steven MFing Moffat I will give you new shows when they are ready and you will air them and you will like it."  Yes I am sure that is how the world works.  No seriously I love him he is an amazing writer and what not but no I hate him... haha.  OK well that is all I am going to rant about right now the weekend was really uneventful for the most part I am still going day to day and failing as much as winning but not quitting.  I am hoping to get things back on track and perhaps have a little more to say this evening.

Much Love,
M

Doomsday.

There is something that will always make me cry and it is this scene from Doctor Who.  The Doctor and Rose separate into different dimension never to be able to to see each other again.  I didn't get into Doctor Who until it hit the air waves with the 9th incarnation of the Doctor so for me this was the first time ever really seeing the Doctor really in love.  It was a heartbreaking moment and for some reason I felt the urge to type something up quick about this.  I am going to put up another blog this evening hopefully with some more substance who knows it may be Doctor Who related or it could be something completely different.

M

Doctor Who

OK so I am very late to the dance but I just recently like a week ago discovered the joy that is Doctor Who.  I was told that it was a show that I really needed to see but honestly it has already been around long enough and I just don't have the time to catch up on a show that has spanned decades.  I was informed that I could start with the 9th Doctor (Christopher Eccleston) and then time would fill in the gaps. They were correct I am halfway through the 10th Doctor (David Tennant) and I am utterly hooked.  I have last sleep each night this week watching the show on Netflix and I am beating myself up for not getting into this show sooner.

I have come to realized that for a person like me who has a very loose grip on reality and can easily find myself getting sucked into a world of fantasy this show may not be the best thing to watch. 90% of the episodes are heartbreaking.  I find myself getting far too attached to characters that I know are probably going to die or leave the show in some incredibly sad way.  Even when the 9th Doctor regenerated to become the 10th Doctor I was a mess.  Last night I watched the last episodes with Rose and well it almost broke me.  I know I know I am a mess I am a wuss and should not be talking about this out loud.

This just goes to show how unstable I think I have become.  I used to have amazing social skills I use to have friends and like to go and do stuff.  Over the last like 10 years I have lost those social skills.  I don't like to be around people and I don't have many friends and the friends I do have live so far away that I cant really count on them for social interaction.

I have reached a point where characters in TV shows, movies and books are really my only friends.  I have lost all real social interactions with people outside of work, and when I do socially interact with people I feel clumsy and awkward with it.  I feel like everything seems forced.  I have become something that I never wanted to become.  I have become addicted to the internet.  I have lost all real sense of the world around me I think that I am riding the cusp of insanity.  I am hoping that this blog might help me keep what little grip I have on sanity.

Blessed Be

M