Delicate Grip On Reality.

OK so I think I am starting to lose grip on reality again.  It happens from time to time.  It seems to happen mostly when I either find a great series of books to read and the series is over or I find a great TV series to watch and the same thing happens where it is over.   I tend to overly lose myself in the world that the writers of the books or shows create and it becomes more real to me than the physical world that I can touch.  The last time it really happened badly was when I got hooked on the Special Agent Pendergast books by Douglas Preston and Lincoln Child.  Now I currently think it is because of the Primeval situation that has pretty much taken up ever free part of my mine that isn't devoted to breathing and eating.  Though I do think it might have taken over some of the eating parts.  Which is not a bad thing.

So I decided that I do what to go Vegan there is one down side.  I currently have a good chunk of food that is not vegan but is vegetarian and in todays economy people cant afford to throw away food so I am going to have to wait until these couple of cans of tomato soup are gone and these cheese ramen instant lunches that I have floating around.

I know there are probably people out there saying "No if you really want to go Vegan you need to get rid of all that stuff now."  Well I have to support my family and this food cost money while yes it didn't cost a lot of money, the ramen was on 39 cents a thing, it still cost money that I don't have a lot of. Plus I am not doing this for a moral reason.  I am a big supporter of people eating meat though I don't agree with how a lot of meat is processed and the animals are treated.  I do think that eating meat is just fine.

Well I guess I should pretend to work.

Blessed Be
M

Doctor Who

OK so I am very late to the dance but I just recently like a week ago discovered the joy that is Doctor Who.  I was told that it was a show that I really needed to see but honestly it has already been around long enough and I just don't have the time to catch up on a show that has spanned decades.  I was informed that I could start with the 9th Doctor (Christopher Eccleston) and then time would fill in the gaps. They were correct I am halfway through the 10th Doctor (David Tennant) and I am utterly hooked.  I have last sleep each night this week watching the show on Netflix and I am beating myself up for not getting into this show sooner.

I have come to realized that for a person like me who has a very loose grip on reality and can easily find myself getting sucked into a world of fantasy this show may not be the best thing to watch. 90% of the episodes are heartbreaking.  I find myself getting far too attached to characters that I know are probably going to die or leave the show in some incredibly sad way.  Even when the 9th Doctor regenerated to become the 10th Doctor I was a mess.  Last night I watched the last episodes with Rose and well it almost broke me.  I know I know I am a mess I am a wuss and should not be talking about this out loud.

This just goes to show how unstable I think I have become.  I used to have amazing social skills I use to have friends and like to go and do stuff.  Over the last like 10 years I have lost those social skills.  I don't like to be around people and I don't have many friends and the friends I do have live so far away that I cant really count on them for social interaction.

I have reached a point where characters in TV shows, movies and books are really my only friends.  I have lost all real social interactions with people outside of work, and when I do socially interact with people I feel clumsy and awkward with it.  I feel like everything seems forced.  I have become something that I never wanted to become.  I have become addicted to the internet.  I have lost all real sense of the world around me I think that I am riding the cusp of insanity.  I am hoping that this blog might help me keep what little grip I have on sanity.

Blessed Be

M